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am I a tranny??

hi hi, this is something I've been struggling for two years now but could never talk about it that much irl because autism ig.
but uhhhh, basically I passively dislike my secondary masculine features but they don't really revolt me. I'm too much of a wimp to shave my body hair and ppl seeing it makes me super frustrated and anxious.
Idk if I care about becoming a woman per se but I really don't want anything to do with masculine social roles and hate my masculine mannerisms (much more so than my physical features ig??) and fell super bad if I accidentally talk really deep or in a "masculine" way coupled with body language etc.
kinda really interested in getting estrogen since the idea of growing more masculine is really awful. sorta maybe wanna be an estrogenized male or whatever, is this normal? is this valid= is this socially acceptable? am I trans???? aaaargh
sorry for shitty annoying badly written rant

  1. 3 weeks ago
    bich ass

    maybe ur trans, maybe ur enby
    the only person who would know is you

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      but the problem is that I don't know and its driving me insane and it feels like I cant do anything about it. I'm too scared to experiment, I feel like I couldn't deal with people's reactions
      another nagging thought is that maybe this is all some shitt y OCD thing ???? idk

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Well to be fair. Nonbinary doesn't exist and is a meme. So, either you want to be a woman or not.

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        what does it mean to just not wanting to be a man?

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          What do you mean by being a man? You can be pretty and feminine while still being a man.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            but I'm not and I blame my masculine features, and idk the man part kinda irks idk and I hate growing manlier

      • 3 weeks ago
        bich ass

        i think its reasonable that some people have less intense but nonetheless very real gender dysphoria

  2. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    You sound like you might be non binary

  3. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    What's that characters name lol
    Anyways, ik it's tough to swallow but reality is only u can truly know whether or not your trans.

  4. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    GO BACK

  5. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    imbibe thine capsules, alicia

  6. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    i gotta agree with the other anons, you sound more non-binary than anything. either way dont let other peoples autism gatekeep you from doing something that makes you happy. if you understand the effects of hrt, and thats what you want, theres nothing wrong with taking it, even if you dont realy see yourself as a girl

  7. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I'd advise against it because there are risks you'll cause irreversable damage to your body and by the time you fully transition you may regret it lots
    what made you hate your male body is it society?

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      idk, it feels bad and I don't like it but on the other hand idk what I even really want, since being pretty and un-masculine is kinda vague

      imbibe thine capsules, alicia

      kinda wish I could fr

      > I really don't want anything to do with masculine social roles and hate my masculine mannerisms (much more so than my physical features ig??) and fell super bad if I accidentally talk really deep or in a "masculine" way coupled with body language etc.
      You're just a man who prefers being less masculine. Nothing wrong with that. You're just you. This doesn't make you a woman.

      I know, idc about being a woman, I would probably take a chance of getting turned to a cis woman but that being an impossibility I am more concerned about not wanting to be a man I think

  8. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    > I really don't want anything to do with masculine social roles and hate my masculine mannerisms (much more so than my physical features ig??) and fell super bad if I accidentally talk really deep or in a "masculine" way coupled with body language etc.
    You're just a man who prefers being less masculine. Nothing wrong with that. You're just you. This doesn't make you a woman.

  9. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    You sound like me, ie an autistic depressed shut in who is incapable of living up the standards put on men and who feels happiness is forever out of reach for them so long as they remain masculine.

    Be VERY careful, even if you're desperate. HRT has had a double effect where I seem to like it and hate it in equal measure. For me its that I hate my chest and like my face, or at least I like it more than I did.

    HRT really only makes obvious sense if you want to be a woman, not a feminine guy. If not try doing everything else first, get laser hair removal, start taking a dht blocker, do skincare, exercise and lose weight. voice train if you hate your masculine voice. All the things you complained about are fixable without HRT

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >You sound like me, ie an autistic depressed shut in who is incapable of living up the standards put on men and who feels happiness is forever out of reach for them so long as they remain masculine.
      yea thats me for the most part, idk I kinda try to not aknowledge any masculine standards placed upon me but honestly I am insanely anxious of dealing with anything and incredibly apathetic so doing anything is kinda idk I used to kinda ask my mother for thigns to try like makeup and stuff but it kinda stpped at nail polish. Kinda really shut off for good after I entertained the notion of getting bangs and my mother, who is supposedly very progressive, just told me that those are kinda girly for you and I just shut up
      I honestly cannot comprehend my thoughts anymore and dont really have an idea what to do
      sorry if this is all incomprehensible I don't really have the energy to proofread

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      thank you for the reality check anon

  10. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I wish I lived in a vacuum where I never had to deal with people in real life ever

  11. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    you didn't state your sexual preferences, do you like women or guys?
    But either way no, you are not trans, you are just a person that like more feminine things, everyone is different, we are not in a mold that every man should be a super pumped soldier slaying pussy, thats just an ideal, but you aren't a woman. I can slighty relate a bit with you because when I started to grow a beard I was bothered by it and plucked it out, when I was little I hated wearing very masculine clothes like belts, button shirts and shit like that, but this doesn't mean that I didn't want to be a man or that I didn't like women, you need to see the cause for that:
    did you have a dad or another male figure to refer to?
    were you raised in a female hausehold (like me)?
    do you have a sister or a lot of female friends?
    any other thing that can cause this feeling?
    But either way if you like males you are just a sissy fag not a tranny

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      wait being androphilic makes one a sissy fag?

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        in the sense of a homosexual that likes to act more girly

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      kinda also replying to

      >I passively dislike my secondary masculine features but they don't really revolt me. I'm too much of a wimp to shave my body hair and ppl seeing it makes me super frustrated and anxious.
      >Idk if I care about becoming a woman per se but I really don't want anything to do with masculine social roles and hate my masculine mannerisms (much more so than my physical features ig??) and fell super bad if I accidentally talk really deep or in a "masculine" way coupled with body language etc.
      >kinda really interested in getting estrogen since the idea of growing more masculine is really awful. sorta maybe wanna be an estrogenized male or whatever, is this normal?

      Autist with no male socialization fails to assimilate into either sex and wants to troon out despite no effeminacy, why does this happen every weekend? Literally what’s the autism-troon connection

      i dont even know my sexual/romantic preference, I can get off to either ig but I have never really wanted another person sexually. I also think you misunderstood, my interests are giga autistic yea but I don't really care about following society's expectations for men, I just dont want to be a man, physically or socially or anything rly i dont fucking know
      I don't have any daddy issues, I was raised by both parents and don't have a sister. Also literally no female friends and that causes me great anxiety because it makes me feel so male socialized, ik its just me being autistic and socially completely worthless

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      This sounds like a hrt femboy. Is that what you wanna be?

      I dont know i dont want anything overboard or hyper sexualisd like that. I simply want to be pretty and feminine and not a man

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >I dont know i dont want anything overboard or hyper sexualisd like that. I simply want to be pretty and feminine and not a man

        Im confused? So you don't want to be a hrt femboy, correct?

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          I'm also confused and trying to make sense of things. If you think my description applies then maybe?? I don't know. My face is also too masculine to be fem-anything tbh

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            At least from what I read, you don't want to physically conform to ymthe conventional male look but you don't want to identify as a woman. People in this thread have said that's non-binary which is pretty much the same as a HRT Femboy (at least biologically speaking)

            • 3 weeks ago
              Anonymous

              idk about any identification, I still identify as a man even if I dont want to because thats how I outwardly appear, I dont like it though.
              I also dont really care about any conventionally male looks I just dont want to look male, if I could I'd maybe want to be one of those lanky completely androgyne anime boys (sorry for weeabooism, gigacringe I know)

              >I just dont want to be a man
              well... you said it. do you care more physically or socially

              both

              • 3 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                do you think that being a girl would make your life easier?

              • 3 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                no because then I'd have to explain it to people and deal with them

              • 3 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                also I dont think I could become a girl in a manner that I'd like considering I am awfully masculine

              • 3 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                then I would stick with it, you should try more to accept yourself instead of changing in something unreachable that will make your life even more difficult

              • 3 weeks ago
                Anonymous

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                Call me weird but I get the feeling you're getting off to this thread. Like, the solution is pretty simple and yet the thread is still going.

                >start HRT (injections)
                >Get a job to pay for FFS
                >workout
                >waist train

                That's pretty much it. There's not really anything else to discuss.

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        first you need to absolutely figure out your sexual preferences and if you like something a bit more than the other. Are you still a minor? Either way like the anon above said this sounds like autism-troon connection, I would not go in hormone therapy if I were you and just try to accept my body more and trying to make some real firends, not online, if you can subscribe for an activity when you can interact with people, it can help

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >I just dont want to be a man
        well... you said it. do you care more physically or socially

  12. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    >I passively dislike my secondary masculine features but they don't really revolt me. I'm too much of a wimp to shave my body hair and ppl seeing it makes me super frustrated and anxious.
    >Idk if I care about becoming a woman per se but I really don't want anything to do with masculine social roles and hate my masculine mannerisms (much more so than my physical features ig??) and fell super bad if I accidentally talk really deep or in a "masculine" way coupled with body language etc.
    >kinda really interested in getting estrogen since the idea of growing more masculine is really awful. sorta maybe wanna be an estrogenized male or whatever, is this normal?

    Autist with no male socialization fails to assimilate into either sex and wants to troon out despite no effeminacy, why does this happen every weekend? Literally what’s the autism-troon connection

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      what's wrong with that anyway? if you dislike having a male body why not change it?

  13. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

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    This sounds like a hrt femboy. Is that what you wanna be?

  14. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Why don't you shave? You should try it. Body hair takes a while to grow back too. When I shaved my body hair I instantly felt so refreshing and also started consider if I am trans. But now after like 3 years later I have not trooned out and don't think I'm gonna. I also am not into doing the masculine role in our society but then again I don't really care if people think that I am doing the wrong role so whatever I can manage without their approval.

    Being estrognized male might sound cool to you but if you're still young (~20) then you are probably not seeing the whole picture. Going into your 30s and beyond with a male skeleton and these estrogenized features isn't really that great.

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      I dont want to deal with other peoples' reactions to me shaving. also I don't want to live over 30, especially not as a man, so idk if that applies

      first you need to absolutely figure out your sexual preferences and if you like something a bit more than the other. Are you still a minor? Either way like the anon above said this sounds like autism-troon connection, I would not go in hormone therapy if I were you and just try to accept my body more and trying to make some real firends, not online, if you can subscribe for an activity when you can interact with people, it can help

      I'm not a minor. I am incapable of making friends or maintaining healthy social relationships. I am too anxious to interact with people

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      Anon just get blockers and HRT online, don't worry about labels for a few months just try to feel more comfortable in your own skin.

      HRT.cafe and /HRTgen/ for the info. If you feel better after a few months keep it up

      I am still trying to figure things out and I don't think I could ever bear dealing with being on HRT and having to explain to other people or take in their reactions

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >I dont want to deal with other peoples' reactions to me shaving
        Plenty of cis guys shave. Straight too. Especially now that it's summer.

        >I don't want to live over 30
        Then leave and come back once you have changed your mind.

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          I rlyrlyrly hate to outwardly change anything about myself if it doesn't conform to the expectations I imagine people close to me have about me
          also, why does me not wanting to live over 30 matter?

          then I would stick with it, you should try more to accept yourself instead of changing in something unreachable that will make your life even more difficult

          I don't think I can accept myself as is

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          Call me weird but I get the feeling you're getting off to this thread. Like, the solution is pretty simple and yet the thread is still going.

          >start HRT (injections)
          >Get a job to pay for FFS
          >workout
          >waist train

          That's pretty much it. There's not really anything else to discuss.

          0 work experience, apathy, anxiety and uncertainty kinda stop me from doing anything really

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >0 work experience, apathy, anxiety and uncertainty kinda stop me from doing anything really

            So its not a case of "am I a tranny". Its just that you're lazy. The easiest thing you can do is just order some E online. Get past that hurdle first.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I have the feeling that you will suicide whatever you do in your life at the end,

            • 3 weeks ago
              Anonymous

              maybe, but I really want to live!! It just seems it's impossible for me to live happily

              • 3 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                no one really lives happy, we just compromise for less than ideal choices sometimes in order to try to find a bit of happiness, and carve our space, you should start from trying to get over your social and anxiety accepting yourself

  15. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

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    Anon just get blockers and HRT online, don't worry about labels for a few months just try to feel more comfortable in your own skin.

    HRT.cafe and /HRTgen/ for the info. If you feel better after a few months keep it up

  16. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    clear dysphoria over the male body. you can try doing what other anons have said and shave, skincare, etc, but if those don't help and thought of getting more masculine over time continues to scare you as well then you might want to consider antiandrogens. bicalutimide is the recommendation

  17. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Go back to twitter bobposting. We don't need you to bring your child grooming to this board. You are a pedophile who grooms minors.

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