All of it was done by one artist and was actually originally just linework without any shading. Through no fault of the artist and totally because of my own choices, I really hated how the entire arm turned out.
After feeling this way for a while and seeing American traditional style pieces on other people and wishing mine looked like that, I made an appointment with a new artist to have all the linework shaded. Picture 3 is what the bird originally looked like, and picture 4 (along with 1 and 2) is after getting it shaded/reworked. I like the bird and the whole arm in general more now, but I still don’t love it, and can’t help but feel like I wasted my entire arm because the bird takes up so much of it. Every time I see it in a mirror or in a picture, I feel regret, and I feel so sad that such a big space could have been something better if only I’d put more thought into it. In comparison, I LOVE my left arm, which is shown in the last picture. The artist who did all the shading/reworking did that arm, and while I’m so grateful to have so many pieces that I love, I think it makes me dislike the other arm that much more. I just feel like there’s such a noticeable stylistic difference between the two arms, and that the left is cohesive with good placement while the right one is all over the place.
I guess my question is, is it as bad as I feel like it is, or am I over analyzing it because it’s on my body and I see it every day? If it really is as bad as I feel like it is, I’d rather know so that I can think about what possible solutions might be. If it isn’t, I’d love to know that too so that I can try and stop thinking about it so much. Any advice would be so helpful!