5 year hrt boymoder
Feeling pathetic
Feeling like each day i get uglier and worse looking
Fucked up my life with a bad degree
And cutting off my nuts
Now a demented heshe freak who misses bein on discord and playing osrs and fnv all say
Now i work and dont have freetime
And i stress and overthink when i am free
And generally hate my life
Dont wanna sui bc im not stupid but fuck bros the dysphoria is bad
Im...broken. i hate it all. I wish i could be 13 again id do so much different
Hell even 18
In 5 years ive fucked up and idk
I just
Idek
Didnt articulate myself well
Im sad im not a girl and im too lazy and scared and anxious to do anything about it
Ps pls post sad mtf images here
Literally me except I'm a boy and not trans
>*sigh* i wish i could wear GIRLY clothes and look like a GIRL and be a CUTE like a GIRL and enjoy GIRLY things
>totally cis tho
Hahahah
Noo, I meant the guy/girl just vibing with herself alone while looking at the mirror going back home
Source?
This would be spot on if not for the erroneous assertion that estrogen is expensive. I have a hard time believing this was drawn by a cis 'phobe
right? every time i see it that still irks me to no end
it's one of the easiest tells whether it's made by a complete retard or not
bump
wtf
Wow, I though about this post some days ago.
I really hope OP is ok 🙁
i would be a solid amount that they have killed themselves, but 2021 is a little recent. if it was pre-2020 i'd be certain they have
i would bet* fuck man i keep making typos today
God I hope she didn't
I prefer to think she had the courage to come out and now lives her ideal life as a tgirl
For whatever its worth I remember seeing some reply one time it was posted, allegedly from her. Apparently she's okay, think her family was at least not horrible about it. I hope that's true.
I really hope it too
This always hit me so hard, fuck.
i tear up literally every time i see it
the way its phrased is so desperate
Checked but also damn it's really been two years since that post
tfw you saw that post get made and you're still here 🙁
yea
literally nothing has changed in that time
what the fuck is the point of living like this
>so much younger
>literally 3 years younger
nagger fuck off, thats normal.
that image and picrel make me so sad
asuka vibes 🙁
i tried this but my family made me eat normally after 6 months lol
it's still your fault for not continuing, don't think you're exempt because you let your family ruin it
you're right. i also failed to diy orchi at 12. i was in the hospital when my grandparents died, i could have cut them off and flushed them down a toilet
wow he literally me :/
Bet that ass is on point
mfer i said hes me cause of what it said, "he has little to no curves and looks malnourished" most of that image applies to me tbh
looks like a fuckable piece of meat
cute 🙂
Literally me
oh wow oh wow oh wow
nah soul is eternal you will be a woman forever
Holy shit this makes me feel so much better as a transitioned at 18 passoid
>Didnt articulate myself well
i think you did well, and im sorry, i can very empathize with it all especially
>Im sad im not a girl and im too lazy and scared and anxious to do anything about it
not necessarily a sad mtf image, but definitely adjacent and this one is my favorite.
btw hi rank hope ur still chill n sexy n shit
>chill n sexy
maybe one of those : )
>tfw you saw that post get made and you're still here 🙁
fml
i saw that and thought "wait thats only like.. a year or something
... its been over two years... holy fuck and i've been here much longer than 2021...
i just checked.. i've got a screenshot from 2019 new years here, and its definitely longer than that
stfu ur sexy in my head
2021 was when i was most active now i just sporadically pop in every few months against my better judgement
living in the real world ain’t so bad all things considered, would recommend
being a little more disconnected has been a pretty positive change in general too, makes time on the computor feel a bit like the old days again
i wish i could leave this place and just, be anywhere else
but this place is all i have. its literally the only "social media" i use, and the only trans place i have to talk at
and i'm already terminally online and a shut in 🙁
i mean, do you really need social media? this place gets exhausting if you’re on it all the time. you’re better off socializing through some team based vidya or MMO than here if making irl friends is not an option, normie social medias are marginally better than here i wouldn’t bother
yeah i need something, mostly for the trans community than anything else
i have a few discord friends i talk to frequently but im not out to anyone, so i kinda have to stay anon
i also talk to people in games sometimes, but again i need somewhere for trans stuff or it just festers in my mind
ffxiv is really fun, but unfortunately the paywall keeps me out too
i guess social media is little more than noise to me and i’ve found that my mind is quieter when i’m not actively engaged be it twitter or (especially) this board, my transness i’ve more or less shoved into the back of my mind after involuntarily detransing. the only way i vent it is through a hookup i see occasionally and to my friends when we’re incredibly sloshed. one way or another you’ll have to learn to live with yourself, can’t rely on a shitty crutch forever.
some people i’ve met through vidya have been pretty genuine. plenty of legbutts nowadays too if you know where to look. seriously i know it’s hard but try to wean yourself off, you’re literally always here. log off. go frolick in a field. i promise you’ll be better for it.
yeah i just don't have anyone to talk to about this stuff, coming out to people will just make me feel worse too because everyone will be like "woah no way, i had no idea" despite me being like 4 years on hrt or something
plus, coming out while just being in permamanmode seems pointless
thats why i come here. i get to talk about being trans and maybe, if only for a moment, be seen as something that isnt just a guy for once. its the only place i get that
>the only place i get that
that was gut wrenching anon
sometimes it be like that : )
i've been trying to voice train but i just cant, i dont understand it at all. my muscles just dont work, i've tried listening to videos explaining it but it makes no sense
plus, i live with family so talking in a girl voice would be difficult, especially in vrchat
you really just gotta get a feel for it yourself, i have the deepest voice you can imagine and still managed to eek out a somewhat passable tranny voice albeit with a lot of strain, didn’t keep at it though
i’m sure there is voice changing software that’s good enough nowadays, or thinking up some wacky AI TTS setup and piping it into your input. a lot of effort but it could be fun to figure out.
>i’m sure there is voice changing software that’s good enough nowadays
yeah there are ones that work, i got a youtube video recommended to me that explained how
but idk, im not social enough for the intensity of live conversation, and it still doesn't help me with having a place to talk about trans stuff
you do you, just throwing shit out there
see ya around
yeah sorry, i know i just come off as a dismissive asshole when i do that
its difficult for me since i've just kinda given up hope, i just wanted to apologize
move out
>muh job
figure something out. it will be worth it, living with others is hell when you're like what you are
consider voice training, maybe tuning a voice mod to push you the whole way if you can’t do it then hopping on vrchat or something?
on the topic of MMOs, there’s plenty of gays/trannies on FFXIV if you can pay the subscription, the paywall probably keeps the community from enshittifying too
just join an lgbt guild and have fun
holy shit that image is fucking rough
born to electric type
forced to ghost/fairy 🙁
i want a mimikyu plushie now
Same
Another plushie to add to my collection yay
tttt plush fund when??
>i just wanna give them love and make sure theyre happy and loved..just that image alone was enough to make me want to keep one safe
same! i have a pikachu plush that has a small rip under his arm, and when i saw it in the store i thought for a moment and knew i needed to save him because he might be rejected by others for it
>this thread's depressing
no problem : )
She just like me fr
>came out to family like an idiot
>lost hrt and been off it for nearly 2 years
>mental breakdown in the process
>degree is in limbo
>lifelong health problems now worse or dealing with new ones to the point where i can’t hold down the shittiest of part time jobs
>no shot at passing anyway
it could be so much worse OP
most days i spend trying to figure out a good sui method or going through the same motions expecting different results
even opening this board was a mistake now ive snapped out of the delusion i was caught up in
oh yeah image
not mtf related i guess but is literally me
If you're hot I'll fix you
Cis man
>If you're hot
i love lookism thanks for reminding me im genuiney worthless because im ugly anon
I only subscribe to looking cause I believe there's usually something you can do to do better.
We may not admit it but I think most of us want something subjectively attractive to wake up next to
You're probably not that ugly, but you can't get out of your head. Your worth isn't determined by others, and you'll never be happy until you learn to value yourself.
Rewatch Evangelion or something
Lookism** not "looking"
autocorrect got me like
im so scared to interact with boys at bars because of this, some twink called me cute but im too autistic to so anything/think im gonna mess up cause im a kissless virgin
>coming up on 6 years hrt
>dad still exclusively misgenders and deadnames me despite being nice to me and generally supportive
>still exclusively wear boy clothes at work
Guh
I would love a castrated failed male boymoder who plays osrs. You should move in and be my housewife.
t. lonely rich chaser
Nah you have to be trolling
would dick you down
is CAFEBEEF here?
You were better as a dude,
this thread's depressing
depressingly comfy.
same. i just wanna give them love and make sure theyre happy and loved..just that image alone was enough to make me want to keep one safe just so they know theyre cherished. thats just my broken bird syndrome acting up for a pokemon tho